new diet

In the last two weeks, I've lost 2 kilos because I changed my diet. I hardly eat any rice and the portions of my food has shrank considerably.

I didn't really consciously change my diet but when the bf got sick, I had little appetite. Even when he got out, I didn't resume normal eating. These days, it's wonderful if I actually get to eat a cup of rice a day. I start out having a cup of instant cereal and a piece of bread. Lunch is vegetables and a bit of protein and dinner is the same. I hardly eat in between meals but if I do, its usually something light.

When we traveled a few days ago, I had to eat properly though. I had to finish every serving and that meant eating a cup of rice with every meal. I really had no choice because the bf was watching. Hehe... But since we're back home, I am able to resume my new diet and avoid eating carbs and the like.

travel

The bf feels much better than he did last week and is already raring to travel. We'll be leaving tomorrow and hopefully be home by Thursday. He got lab tests done last Saturday and the results were bad. He had a very high SGPT level and was probably one of the reasons why he was still weak. We had gone to the doctor today, was given medication and he has to undergo several tests again after two weeks. 

I am not really looking forward to leaving because that means I'll be away from the baby. I will definitely miss him but I also know the bf can't manage without me. Hahaha! Anyway, I guess it will be okay since the baby  has my parents to watch over him. He has classes tomorrow until Thursday and I'll be asking my sister to take and fetch them from school. It'll be relief for me as I get to take a break from being a school bus driver, if only for three days.

* I run out of ideas yesterday so I didn't make an entry. Writing about Donaire's victory would probably be overrated! = )

baby number 2

I've lost a bit of weight when the bf got sick last week. My eating hasn't returned to normal up to now so I'm still not my same old self. I kind of like it because I know I still need to lose at least ten pounds to reach my ideal weight.

The bf just noticed how much weight I lost off because he blurted out this morning if I wanted another baby-and that's after we had breakfast. I was like "What???????????????" No!". He says I've lost a lot of weight and that it was okay if he did because he was sick but I don't have the same excuse. I said I'm fine with the way I look and I don't want to have another baby, at least not yet. He wants me to gain back at least a few pounds because apparently I'm almost getting to the "skinny" stage, which is not even true.

This afternoon he said he was mistaken earlier and that even if I did lose weight, it was just enough.

Whatever!

not that well

The bf was discharged from the hospital last Saturday but he still isn't back to his normal self. Last Monday, he still had bouts of nosebleeds and up to now, he still has a lot of complaints. He really got affected by the dengue virus and is not eating well. He feels lightheaded, is always perspiring but only in the head and does not feel hungry at all. Yesterday, he said he felt nauseous and had a weird headache.

I am worried about it and I hope he'll get better in good time. He's been resting a lot and sleeps well into late morning. We haven't done any biking and I've asked him to slow down with business-related stuff. Luckily, his younger brother is here and has been tremendous help. 

He's due for a return check-up tomorrow and hopefully the doctor can help him.  

keep on smiling = )

I am not a rich person, basing on actual standards. But it is safe to say that I have enough. All my needs, as well as my son's, are met and while I am not that well off, I am content.

I have some friends who have more than I do while I also have friends who are struggling. A friend that belongs to the latter is D. We used to belong to the same group in the past and we have remained friends up to now. He is now married with two children. To say he is poor is not a judgment but a reality. Financially, they are struggling but despite all his difficulties, he always has a very good disposition.

Last Sunday, I saw him and his wife at the supermarket. We talked for a bit about life and children, etc. Part of our conversation included smiling through whatever hardships life may bring. He told me that we should always have a happy countenance. According to him, just because you're poor does not automatically mean you're sad. And whenever I think of that I smile because I know it's true. Different people have their own set of problems. Even the rich get plagued by illnesses, scandals and difficulties. Last week, I hardly ever smiled because I was very much concerned about the bf's condition. Up to now, he isn't fully recovered but at least he's better. D made me think that despite his (the bf) illness, at least he's still breathing. 

So now and every day I will try to keep on smiling through the pain, hurt and sorrow. I know that life is not perfect but God will not give us something that we can't get through. Besides, it takes more muscles to frown than smile- that means lesser wrinkles too!

Smile!

home

The bf is finally home from the hospital. He got discharged this afternoon and is now resting. Thank God for that.

Whew! Huge sigh of relief!

hospital update

The bf is still confined to the hospital. He was admitted Saturday morning because of dengue fever. He was due to be released on Tuesday but his platelet count dropped considerably. He didn't want to have transfusion but has no choice. He's getting it tomorrow because there is no improvement.

This is rough.

dengue

It is confirmed. The bf has dengue although hopefully he'll be released from the hospital tomorrow. Enough said.

*photo from Facebook

dinner at home

I held my post-birthday dinner last night. It was an intimate affair with family, my girlfriends and family friends. The bf sprang for my lechon because he didn't get me a birthday gift. Hahaha! I only had few dishes prepared because I knew there were few people coming. Two of my girlfriends failed to come because one was pregnant and required bed rest while the other's kids had the flu. The baby had a great time playing with my girlfriends' kids who came and he slept very soundly last night.

It was my cousin's actual birthday so he had his picture taken with my teeny cake and the food to prove that it was his "celebration".

It was fun although the bf couldn't come. He was very sick that night and is still sick up to today. He has the flu and even if I gave him a whole body massage yesterday and is taking medication, his fever still hasn't gone down. I am really worried about it and am tempted to take him to the doctor already.

birthday

My 31st came and went without much fanfare. All I had was rain and cloudy skies. I never really celebrated my birthday although I did spend the entire day with the bf. And that was only because we had to take a business trip. We drove out of town early in the morning to pay for merchandise and we arrived home at around 11pm already. I intend to hold a dinner party tomorrow with my girlfriends as a delayed celebration. It won't be as big as the baby's for sure and hopefully the weather will not be as nasty as it was in the last few days. 

I may have turned another year older but so far nothing's changed so far. Hehe... I still dress and act like I'm in my 20s and I guess it helps keep me feel young even if my birth certificate declares otherwise. Essentially, I am just thankful to be a year older because it means I get to spend more time with the loves of my life. 

out of town

My family intended to go out of town for the weekend but it got cancelled because my aunt won't be around. We're supposed to stay in their house but she said to move it next week instead because she's still busy with work. I'm not sure whether we'll push through at all.

My brother didn't want to go because he had school activities and the bf is also indisposed because his mom is confined to the hospital after a mild stroke. Right now, I am stuck at home (as usual) resting and watching the baby take his afternoon nap. I declined my boss' request to work today because I wanted to take a break. I am now going to finish reading David Baldacci's Deliver us from Evil and eat and sleep alternately.

The bf and I are going out of town for my birthday anyway. Yes, I'll be 31 next week although we are not traveling for pleasure but business. Nevertheless, it's okay because I think I'll get to shop by then. Fingers crossed, though. 

Because there'll be a power interruption tomorrow, we plan to head on to one of the new resorts and go swimming. Hopefully the weather will cooperate and give us a bright and shining sun.

biking update

The bf and I still bike every morning as long as the weather permits it. We got bored with our daily route and finally upped the ante. 

One morning we did 36 kilometers and it was quite adventurous because we had to pass by houses and dogs and muddy trails. It was mountain biking in every sense of the word. We also took one route wherein we had to carry our bikes across because the bridge was destroyed from last year's typhoon. The current in the river was quite strong and I really had to struggle because my bike was quite heavy-or so I think. Our shoes and socks got wet and the bf actually stepped onto some cow dung. Hahaha! It was a long ride home but the view was spectacular at the top. 

We intend to go up to the shrine tomorrow although I doubt if we will. The rains fell hard today and that means wet ground tomorrow. Nevertheless, it is safe to say that our daily trips are no longer monotonous. In fact, we go wherever we feel like going. We take the long or short route, depending on our energy level.

I love that we can finally manage to go long distances. The bf has always been the stronger biker but I can already keep up with him this time. In two months, there is already progress in terms of our stamina and I have also lost more weight. I would like to think that biking is more effective as compared to running/walking. 

weekend

The day after the baby's birthday is my girlfriend's birthday. The night before, we planned on having lunch together but finally decided on a breakfast birthday. It was simple, relaxing and fun. The food was breakfast fare and I requested for puto, tsokolate and sardines. I also brought in food from the party. My other girlfriend brought chocolates, almonds, pistachios and cashews so we were really full. It was just us at my friend's house although I had to leave early because it's Saturday and that mean's "visit the uncle" day. I no longer ate lunch there, only fed the baby.

When I got home, I took a catnap and then spent quality time with the bf. We had a busy week and weren't able to spend much time together after arriving from the metro. I was busy with the party and he was busy with business and that just won't do. We had a good time and then I capped off my day with a whole body massage. It was so relaxing, I actually slept in the middle of the session.

Sunday means bike, church and then lay back afterwards. The baby and I stopped by McDonald's to get breakfast and there I saw our walking/running buddies. They were inquiring about what happened to us so I told them we already do biking. I am now at home, alternating between TV, computer, eating and sleeping. This is the life.

i'm back!

I arrived last night from our trip. I was knocked out right away and went to sleep way before the baby did. I even forgot to take a Stresstab multivitamin before bed. I had just eaten dinner and didn't want to drink vitamins right away. I slept for eleven hours straight which is really good because I lacked sleep for two night's straight.

The baby's party will be tomorrow and everything's all set, I think. I have yet to get drinks and ice cream but other than that, everything's good. I decided not to hold a party in the baby's school because I was still tired when I awoke this morning. I failed to ask his teacher about holding a party when I fetched him today. Maybe next year.

I was planning to get a massage earlier but decided to wait. I know I'll still be tired tomorrow so I'll wait till Saturday before getting one.

Nothing exciting happened on the trip save for the heavy traffic and flooding at Banawe last Monday. The weather was really bad that night and even in the morning of Tuesday. But on our travel home, the weather was good already. We also had two interruptions (vehicle related) that delayed our trip but other than that, everything went as expected. By the way, I saw the ex-bf at the airport last Monday. He was also heading for the metropolis and I saw him as I was about to board the plane. I was waiting for the bf because he still had to return the vehicle to the shop. I was watching him get inside the pre-departure area and when I turned, the ex-bf walked in. I didn't acknowledge his presence and pretended not to see him. The bf didn't notice him as well.

again

We're finally going to travel tomorrow after almost two months. The bf is excited to leave because he's got a lot on his list. I am not that interested in traveling because it's the baby's birthday week and I've got so much to do. Not really. Hahaha! I already got baby's outfit except for shoes and I'm getting stuff for the loot bag today so that's it. I'll be home on Wednesday so I still have enough time, I think.

The food's going to be cooked by my mom's friend, there's cake and I intend to buy ice cream on the day itself. I am still debating whether to get cupcakes. I'm still not sure. I also have to ask the baby's teacher if I should hold a party in school. I don't really want to, maybe next year.

Because I'm a procrastinator, I'll wait till the last minute to get all the stuff necessary. Even if I do procrastinate, I'm a good planner. I'll keep you posted when it's done.

you're not chismosa

I mentioned going to the Wednesday market this morning. It is about 20 kilometers from the city and we got there in time for lunch. We alternate between two food stalls and they probably recognize the bf and I because we've been going there for years.

After eating, the bf went to get lechon to take home. I was waiting for him in the stall and the owner talked to me. Here's our conversation-I'll translate it in English for easy comprehension.

Her: You've been coming here long and you still don't have kids.
Me: Oh we do, we have one child but he's still young.
Her: Really, I didn't see you get pregnant.
Me: I already gave birth when we started coming here.
Her: I see...

I guess she was wondering why it was only the bf and I that go to the market. The reason is there is no point bringing the baby because he won't eat any of the food they serve anyway.

say sorry

The bf's brother arrived yesterday from the metropolis. His brother asked him to fetch him from the airport and so he did. His brother had no checked in luggage so he was able to get in the truck right away. Our airport here is small. The arrival area has very limited space and parking is at a minimum. As they were preparing to leave, the policeman signaled the bf to go ahead. He couldn't proceed yet because a mother and son tandem was crossing in front of his vehicle. The bf waited until the boy had moved to the side before going. He was surprised to have hit something in front of him. The truck actually lurched and he was scared for a teeny bit. When he opened his windows, he saw that he had hit the boy's trolley. The mom and the bf exchanged words and he was asked to move to the side. The bf being himself, didn't stop but went on ahead.

This morning, he was called to the police station because the mom apparently filed a complaint. The bf went alone and they settled the matter amicably. The complainant didn't expect to be remunerated for the trolley but only wanted an apology. from him The bf willingly gave it to her and it was over in just a few minutes. Oooopps!

broken hearted Andrea

The bf and I live in different places. I live in the city while he's in the next municipality. But the distance is not great, just a couple of kilometers or so. Him going to my place or vice versa does not take ten minutes. Basically, I live in A and he lives in B and we bike to C, which is another municipality.

We bike daily for about one and a half hours. It takes me one hour to get to the C town plaza and it takes him about 50-55 minutes. Going back home is a breeze at only 30 minutes. When we reach the plaza, we take about 10 to 15 minutes to rest. It's our time to talk about the people we see, events of last night, etc. (Totally unrelated by the way, but I met the ex-bf this morning. He said hi and I ignored him!)

I always get to our pit stop first because the bf takes the longer route. Last week, I saw a piece of paper held in place by a rock. It was a letter addressed "to girls" written by a broken hearted girl named Andrea. I regret not taking a photo of the letter which was in Filipino. It wasn't correct in spelling or grammar but the pain was evident. It was the story of a girl who trusted a boy who ultimately broke her heart.

I found it silly and useless because everyone will have his or her heart broken hearted at one point or another. Maybe it was Andrea's first love and she viewed her lovelife with rose-colored glasses. But whatever! Life is bad enough as it is and having a broken heart should be the least of anyone's worries. We weren't the first to read the note as somebody had written on it saying it was crap. My sentiments exactly.

fight

I don't always talk about the fights the bf and I have because there are hardly any. We don't fight like most couples because there is no reason to. But I was mad at him last Sunday and told him so. The bf and I had a huge fight last Monday. It sort of reminded me why we barely fight and that is because sometimes, fights can get dirty.

Of course, we made up just as easily. The bf is not one for grudges and he always tells me what he says in the heat of the moment may not necessarily be the truth. Still, some of the words we exchange can hurt. I am one to hold grudges and never forget but I have learned not to be that type of person anymore. Last night, I was still a little miffed but I got over it already.

The bf and I are now at peace and things are back to normal. I guess it's nice to have an argument every so often, if only to remind ourselves of what we mean to each other and what we have to do to stay together.

bike pics

I am finally uploading pics of my new bike. How does it look compared to the junky old thing down below?

Great upgrade, right? And the new one provides a better ride too. The bf got us new bike seats too because the seat that came with the bike was really hard and gave such a sore front and behind. Trust me, the first ride was brutal!