excuses, excuses

It is safe to say that I am lazy. If I wasn't I'd have all the photos I'm supposed to upload in my computer, I'd be posting at least daily and I'd have a life! Hahaha! Unfortunately, I have done none of the above. My photos are still in the camera, I didn't post anything over the weekend and I am almost always in my bedroom.

I am not not exactly making any excuses for my behavior because this is what I am. Whenever I think of writing an exciting post, I tend to forget about it the next day. I don't really go anywhere so I can't blog about people or places I see. Instead of doing a post, I spend hours watching downloaded television shows or sleeping. I think of food I want to eat but end up eating what our help made because it's too much effort.

This probably part of the reason why I'm always broke because I'm not working hard enough. Hahaha! I make just enough and it's all gone in two days. I have plans of becoming a better person but I don't know where to begin. Being a lawyer is out because I no longer want to be a student. I am contemplating getting a real job, one that requires me to dress up and go to the office but I don't have the proper motivation yet.

Yes, I am lazy and making too many excuses. But forgive me for being human.

lawyer-not!

I talked about going to law school and yesterday, I almost enrolled. I was convinced by my friends to give it a shot and I decided on whim to do so. However, my heart wasn't really in it.

I went to the school to make inquiries and was told I had to take a written examination and then get an interview with the dean. I did both yesterday and passed on both accounts. I was told my the dean's secretary to join the second class from 7pm to 9pm and enroll officially today. I am a late enrollee as classes already began last June 11.

So I joined the class and found it not up to par. I didn't like my classmates, for one. They were good for nothing, trying hard, wannabe lawyers who do not have intelligent things to say. Hahaha! I mean, I don't open my mouth in class if I am not sure of the answers. But they just kept on shooting off at the mouth even if it was sheer nonsense. Ugh! Then the teacher was a sarcastic and judgmental piece of you-know-what who felt she was a class above the rest. Just because you're a lawyer does not automatically mean you're superior from the rest of us! Plus, did I mention she had a lousy teaching technique?

During the class, I had no interest at all. It was not something I wanted and I knew I couldn't give my 100% to the classes. I do not like doing things half-baked or with half a heart because I know I will ultimately fail if I force myself. There was no proper motivation, no burning desire within me and for that, I decided not to pursue it. I asked the bf for his opinion and like me, he was also hesitant. He was also having second thoughts about telling me to enroll. And so I told him with your 50% and my 50%, we already have 100%.

I guess this means I will not be a lawyer in 2015. But who knows, I could become one in 2016!