a-hole!!!

i am not exactly the best "friend" in the world. i don't bother myself with much of the trivial details of their lives, nor do i burden them with mine. i am happy to be with them if time permits but i do not always keep in touch. i reply to texts or emails but i do not do it first. my friends all know i am always out of the loop and sometimes i don't try to keep up anymore.

but i am saddened by one news i heard last night. my friend who is pregnant right now was apprently abandoned by her husband. maybe abandonment is too strong but that is how i perceive it. he left december 22 to work abroad-without telling her! he just left without a word, no goodbye or warning whatsover. she called him at his place of work because she was ready to come home from her own office. she was told he resigned already. when she got home, she discovered all his clothes were gone. ouch! they have been having problems because the husband has another woman. this woman is working overseas. apparently, she is the stepping stone he used so he could get work in that particular country. she came home last october and they left together this december.

my friend was expecting him to leave. she knew he was still carrying on with the woman even if he had gone home with them. i, however, had no idea. when i learned she was expecting, i thought they had settled everything between them. in fact, she was the one who asked me once if i was okay. i told her i was always okay and she should take care of herself. to be honest, i got peeved when she told me she was pregnant. i was tired of her being a martyr and i knew that her being with child means she will go back to him yet again and he will continually break her heart. boy, was i right! it wasn't a merry christmas for her at all. no wonder she said she needed her friends. i cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now. her husband is a first class piece of crap that should not be allowed to live. luckily, she is a strong person and she will get through this with her head held high. we jokingly told her we are willing to offer her all kinds of help-except for financial help, that is.

how was your christmas?

yesterday was december 25 and christmas is over. i celebrated mine with all my loved ones (family, relatives and friends) with much laughter and fun. my family and i went to midnight mass before noche buena. after we lighted some sparklers and watched fireworks in the sky and slept. the baby enjoyed the sparklers. in fact he said he was "sparklering".

i did more giving than receiving and it feels quite good. i've really gotten used to not getting much during this time. i haven't even opened a gift-wrapped present yet and i doubt if i ever will receive one. the bf was very practical in giving me money so i'm definitely not going to get a wrapped present from him. my sister did get me a perfume but she didn't wrap it, you see.

the bf still did his exercise on christmas morning but i didn't. i did go with him because he misses me if i don't. i didn't give him any present because my budget was really tight this year. besides, he wasn't expecting anything from me anyway. = )

the baby didn't get a lot of toys this year. instead, he mostly got clothes. but that's okay, we even gave away most of his old toys to the less fortunate kids in the neighborhood. he still has enough to amuse him and his cousin. even his dad did not want to get him toys because they will easily get destroyed. since the baby knows how to sing jingle bells, he sang for his dad. in return, he got 50 pesos.

my mom thinks i still owe her a gift. i didn't get her one because i already gave her cash. my dad chose his own gift from me as well. and i would prefer that than give him something he wouldn't use or like. my dad is the lousiest gift giver of all. last year, when we had our kris kringle, he gave me a set of bed linens. hello???!!* but of course, i accepted it with grace and dignity even if me and my mom were laughing so hard when he went out of the room. my sister and brother did not get any present from me either. oh well...

my time with the girlfriends was a barrel of laughs (as usual!) we are all lucky to have been spared from the typhoon. my girlfriends and i are going to share to the less fortunate before the end of the year. we set it to december 30 because of conflicting schedules. we plan to give to the victims of sendong but we still need to plan this- or rather not plan. we are all for spontaneity because most of our plans are doomed to fail. it is going to be our third year of gift-giving.

that was my christmas, how was yours?

expensive tastes

my baby has quite expensive taste when it comes to toys. that or the fact that toys are really expensive nowadays. either way, i cannot seem to afford the toys he likes. for one, he wants to have hotwheels wall tracks. his cousins have one in their house and he only gets to play when he visits. i scouted around and found out it costs P2,300 more or less for the starter kit. huh??? that much? he also wants to have a vtech electronic learning game that i'm sure costs several thousands as well. if you ask him, he can narrate the toys he wants: scan2go, power rangers, ben10 and of course, thomas the train.

i would have wanted my son to have a merry christmas but i'm afraid i can't buy them all. i have yet to wrap a christmas present for him. and i can't do that because i haven't bought one yet. hahaha! oh well! his daddy also does not know what to give him yet. but i told him to get the vtech game. hopefully, he'll be able to buy it in time. at least, that's one toy off my list.

i know my baby is a bit spoiled but he's the only one i've got. who else am i supposed to spoil? = )

my christmas list

i have yet to complete my christmas list. i haven't even gotten anything for the baby yet. this year, i plan to give him several toys and wrap it for him especially. however, the toys i want for him are expensive so i'll probably end up buying only one! = )

when i made a list of my godchildren, i noticed that my list was a bit short. and i was racking my brains for kids i was supposed to buy presents for but i can't seem to remember. then last week, my friend pm-ed me. i was invited to her kid's birthday who happened to be my godchild! hahaha! no wonder my list is short, she wasn't included! so i had to add her name.

i plan to complete my list tomorrow or tuesday. i am flying out again by wednesday. friday and saturday will probably be a too late. i have yet to assess the budget and i am waiting for the bf to give me my christmas bonus! hahaha!

what you don't know...

there have been times when i go out without telling the bf. i don't like telling him that i go out at night with friends or family sometimes because he gets insecure or praning. he always asks if i'm going home already, what i am doing etc. in the middle of the event. so to avoid getting pissed at him for being such a spoilsport, i keep mum about my activities.

it has worked several times already so last night when we were going out of town to look at the giant christmas tree, i didn't tell him. the travel was uneventful. it was kind of fun but i don't think it was worth the trip. i wasn't driving, my brother was. on the way home, we had to pass some really bad roads that were under construction. 20 minutes into the drive home, we almost got into an accident. as in a major accident that could have totally injured us all. i was so pi**ed! my brother was driving in the middle of the road and only half of it was done. at least the damage was just a torn wheel and a little scratch. my sister asked if i could call the bf to rescue us. and i said, no way. he'll basically slaughter me if he knew i let my brother drive and for going out of town without telling him. we ended up leaving the car there and took the bus home. we had to go back in the morning to have the wheel replaced.

up to now, the bf doesn't know anything. and i know that what he doesn't know won't hurt him.

almost done....

i took the time to multitask today. i took the baby out and went christmas gift shopping. i just got back from travelling with the bf and i wanted to make up by taking the baby out. he likes toy window shopping so i brought him with me while i brought presents. i like bringing the baby to the toy department because he's content with just watching and trying out toys. he does not insist on getting a toy for himself but waits if i am willing to get him one. usually, i just get an inexpensive toy and he's fine with it.

while the baby was browsing the aisles, i was able to buy gifts for the kids. i have yet to get 3 or 4 more but that will have to wait. at least i'm more than halfway done. for my immediate family, i have yet to buy, as well as for our household help. i will just wait for my mom for that.

i asked the bf what he wanted from me and said i didn't have to bother. but i will get him something for sure. anyway, he can wait. hahaha! i am still wondering what to give my dad. i have difficulty choosing a gift for him. if i can't think of something, well, cash will have to do.

because i was in the mood, i also finished wrapping the gifts i bought. it's too bad my mom didn't put up a tree this year. she was too lazy to do so and now it's too late. i ended up putting the gifts on the dining table. = )

christmas, gifts and sharing

christmas is in the air. barely 25 days to go and it's the much anticipated holiday of the year. i am not looking forward to it this year. hahaha! as usual, i am broke and i need lots of moolah to buy presents. but then again, God moves in mysterious ways and i know that i will be able to find enough money to buy gifts for my family and godchildren.

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the bf is a lousy gift giver. pardon me, but it is true. he now gives me cash instead so i will be able to choose the gift i want. i'm glad to get money but i guess it's also nice to have a present to open. nevertheless, the bf does not want anything from me. but i do give him a gift every year. i give practical gifts like a belt or wallet etc. i tried giving him a shirt one time but it didn't fit him. hahaha! this year, i'll have to rack my brain yet again for a present for the bf. but i know i will find something before gift-giving time comes.

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i will have to unload my closet again and give away old clothes- we all do that every year. every christmas, people come to the house and my mom gives away rice, goods and old stuff for her constituents. my closet looks really empty but it's a nice feeling within. besides, its another excuse to buy clothes for the new year! since we all give away, there is something for everyone. men, women and for little boys. too bad there's no little girl in the family yet. i remember the time when i had just given birth, even my maternity clothes were not spared because a pregnant lady came and her clothes weren't fit for someone expecting.

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when the new year rolls in, i will go back to being broke again. hahaha! after christmas, we'll be going out of town for our annual holiday trip. oh well, money comes and money goes! besides, we should celebrate because life is short!