i do not believe in being friends with all your ex-boyfriends. i am friends with some of my exes but not all. i have two ex-boyfriends that the bf knows about. he does not want me to be friends with either of them. i couldn't agree more. i hate ex-bf no.1. i'm not bitter! but i don't like him anymore. while i am partly to blame for the hurt i felt when i was still in a relationship with him, still i cannot forget it. i can forgive, i guess but i will never forget. he had the gall to add me as a friend in facebook. naturally, i ignored it. i didn't even bother telling the bf about it.
as for the ex-bf no. 2, well he's a persistent one. up to now, he still says he loves me etc. hah! are you wondering how he says that to me? he calls me up, that's how. you see, i am friends with his cousin and he finally got my number from him. i usually ignore his calls (when i realize it's him who is calling) but i was mistaken about two times already.
last monday was the second time. i was at home, waiting for the bf to come. it was our scheduled "date". we try to do that once or twice a week, if the schedule permits. to spend time together and hang out without "business concerns". when the appointed time came, the bf texted that his aunts were visiting and he couldn't get away. i obviously had no choice. i was too lazy to go out so i just stayed home and worked. at about 4:30 pm, my cellphone rang. it was an overseas call. i figured it was the ex-bf no.2. since i wasn't busy, i answered it. we talked for about 10-15 minutes. at the back of my mind, i was thinking what to tell the bf if he happened to call me. my question was immediately answered because the bf arrived. he asked who was i talking to because he couldn't get through. i told him it was my girlfiend who wanted to catch up. i didn't bother saying goodbye to the ex. i just hung up, else i'd be caught. = )
i'm not really guilty for talking to him because i have no feelings for him at all. he even asked if i missed him and my answer was a flat-out no! i really don't. but to be honest, part of me also wants to feel desired (i guess). the bf does not want to compliment me too much because he's afraid that i'll leave him! the fact that this ex-bf is still longing for me somehow it makes me feel very beautiful indeed!
as for the ex-bf no. 2, well he's a persistent one. up to now, he still says he loves me etc. hah! are you wondering how he says that to me? he calls me up, that's how. you see, i am friends with his cousin and he finally got my number from him. i usually ignore his calls (when i realize it's him who is calling) but i was mistaken about two times already.
last monday was the second time. i was at home, waiting for the bf to come. it was our scheduled "date". we try to do that once or twice a week, if the schedule permits. to spend time together and hang out without "business concerns". when the appointed time came, the bf texted that his aunts were visiting and he couldn't get away. i obviously had no choice. i was too lazy to go out so i just stayed home and worked. at about 4:30 pm, my cellphone rang. it was an overseas call. i figured it was the ex-bf no.2. since i wasn't busy, i answered it. we talked for about 10-15 minutes. at the back of my mind, i was thinking what to tell the bf if he happened to call me. my question was immediately answered because the bf arrived. he asked who was i talking to because he couldn't get through. i told him it was my girlfiend who wanted to catch up. i didn't bother saying goodbye to the ex. i just hung up, else i'd be caught. = )
i'm not really guilty for talking to him because i have no feelings for him at all. he even asked if i missed him and my answer was a flat-out no! i really don't. but to be honest, part of me also wants to feel desired (i guess). the bf does not want to compliment me too much because he's afraid that i'll leave him! the fact that this ex-bf is still longing for me somehow it makes me feel very beautiful indeed!
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