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I try to sleep early at night because I wake up early the next morning. I'm the type of person who counts the number of hours I sleep because I believe proper rest is necessary. Last night, the baby slept in my parent's bedroom because he was sick with fever. He didn't want to see me or talk to me and I was banished and told to go to my bedroom. I just watched television, frequently switching channels to find the right show. I like Rocco's Dinner Party on 2nd Avenue so I saw it. After it was finished, I changed to Lifestyle Network where Guilliana and Bill was showing. I find Bill cute so I watched for bit. I felt it was too scripted so I decided to watch AXN instead but didn't like the show. I continued flipping channels until I saw this movie on Cinema One. 

I didn't get to watch the movie from the start but I already knew what it was about. I know it's an old movie but I never really got the chance to watch it then. So I did and I alternately laughed and cried. It was a realistic enough movie and the actors were great. For me, it just proved that you only get to fulfill a bucket list if you are well of. After all, she lives in a condo, drives a Fortuner and wasn't working. I don't really know what her work was before she got sick, only that she could afford to fly off to Hong Kong on a whim. But the essence of the movie was there. That you could either fight death or learn to accept it. Rather than wallow in pity, you should embrace the remaining time you have and spend it with people that matter most to you. It made me ask myself what would I prefer?  To know I was dying so I could prepare for it or to die instantly. Up to now, I still can't decide. 

The movie ended at around 11 pm already and that meant only six hours of sleep for me. But it was okay because my time was well spent, I think.