sunday was my day-off from the bf. or rather our day off from each other. anyway, i didn't see him at all that day. we were supposed to go walking early in the morning but i couldn't sleep the night before. i was awake until 2 am i guess so i knew exercising was not going to happen. the bf texted as well and said he was still tired. at about 8 am, he said he was visiting his father and then his mother. separately, because his mom never went back to their home and is currently staying with his elder brother. i said ok and proceeded to wash my car and lounge around the house. after lunch, he was already in his brother's house and went home at about 5 pm.
at 6 pm, i had a meeting with some graduating college students who asked for my help for their final paper. i couldn't refuse because one member was the daughter of my former co-worker. we had met for about two times and they were preparing for their defense this coming tuesday. so i went to meet them and got home around 10 pm.
the next day, the bf and i went walking. but the rain suddenly poured and we had to stop. i got in his truck and he was thinking of getting freshly caught fish. we went to where the fishermen were and waited for the rain to abate. when it did, the bf went down. while i was waiting for him, i saw a receipt. i read it and it was about a ferry ride on sunday with the bf's name on it. i asked him if he went out of town yesterday. he said no, the receipt wasn't his but that of his client. the receipt was just in his name because the vehicle was still registered to him. he even asked " what am i going to do there on a sunday anyway?"
so i just kept quiet. but in the back of my mind i was really doubting him. all day yesterday, i was preoccupied with the thought that maybe the bf lied to me. in the afternoon, i asked him about it again. but then i recalled one instance when i was really convinced the bf was lying. eventually, i told him about it and he said "do you still doubt me up to now? do you really think i'd keep anything from you?" i figured i am making a mountain out of a molehill this time. so i'll let it slip. i am actually very trusting but sometimes, doubt can make you question things. oh well... whatever.
at 6 pm, i had a meeting with some graduating college students who asked for my help for their final paper. i couldn't refuse because one member was the daughter of my former co-worker. we had met for about two times and they were preparing for their defense this coming tuesday. so i went to meet them and got home around 10 pm.
the next day, the bf and i went walking. but the rain suddenly poured and we had to stop. i got in his truck and he was thinking of getting freshly caught fish. we went to where the fishermen were and waited for the rain to abate. when it did, the bf went down. while i was waiting for him, i saw a receipt. i read it and it was about a ferry ride on sunday with the bf's name on it. i asked him if he went out of town yesterday. he said no, the receipt wasn't his but that of his client. the receipt was just in his name because the vehicle was still registered to him. he even asked " what am i going to do there on a sunday anyway?"
so i just kept quiet. but in the back of my mind i was really doubting him. all day yesterday, i was preoccupied with the thought that maybe the bf lied to me. in the afternoon, i asked him about it again. but then i recalled one instance when i was really convinced the bf was lying. eventually, i told him about it and he said "do you still doubt me up to now? do you really think i'd keep anything from you?" i figured i am making a mountain out of a molehill this time. so i'll let it slip. i am actually very trusting but sometimes, doubt can make you question things. oh well... whatever.
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