the big c

I have always been scared of getting sick and having a life-threatening disease. Fortunately for me and my immediate family, we are all healthy and strong. Even my parents are quite fit, save for my mom who has a heart condition. However, it can be controlled with diet and medication so at least it's not that bad.

Two of my friends have the dreaded cancer. One is a boy, the other the girl. The girl, G, has lung cancer while the boy, B, has colon cancer which has apparently metastasized to the bones already. G has had cancer for two years and has the means to pay for any treatment. She has undergone chemotherapy and radiation and is said to be on the way to recovery. It's sad because she has always been very careful about diet and taking care of her body. We're really good friends but her husband does not always want visitors around her. I saw her last April and hopefully I'll have a chance to visit her again.

B just got diagnosed this month although he has steadily lost weight since last year. He feared it was tuberculosis but proved to be something even worse. His primary concern is money for treatment as they are not as well off as G.

I know cancer is very common nowadays but it's still news when it happens to people you know. I haven't visited B as well because I was out of town last week and some of my friends went on ahead without me. I intend to go with them next time although I am not sure as he will be getting treatment in another city.

When I pray, I always ask for good health for everyone I love because what is the point of riches if you are not healthy enough to enjoy it.

new diet

In the last two weeks, I've lost 2 kilos because I changed my diet. I hardly eat any rice and the portions of my food has shrank considerably.

I didn't really consciously change my diet but when the bf got sick, I had little appetite. Even when he got out, I didn't resume normal eating. These days, it's wonderful if I actually get to eat a cup of rice a day. I start out having a cup of instant cereal and a piece of bread. Lunch is vegetables and a bit of protein and dinner is the same. I hardly eat in between meals but if I do, its usually something light.

When we traveled a few days ago, I had to eat properly though. I had to finish every serving and that meant eating a cup of rice with every meal. I really had no choice because the bf was watching. Hehe... But since we're back home, I am able to resume my new diet and avoid eating carbs and the like.

travel

The bf feels much better than he did last week and is already raring to travel. We'll be leaving tomorrow and hopefully be home by Thursday. He got lab tests done last Saturday and the results were bad. He had a very high SGPT level and was probably one of the reasons why he was still weak. We had gone to the doctor today, was given medication and he has to undergo several tests again after two weeks. 

I am not really looking forward to leaving because that means I'll be away from the baby. I will definitely miss him but I also know the bf can't manage without me. Hahaha! Anyway, I guess it will be okay since the baby  has my parents to watch over him. He has classes tomorrow until Thursday and I'll be asking my sister to take and fetch them from school. It'll be relief for me as I get to take a break from being a school bus driver, if only for three days.

* I run out of ideas yesterday so I didn't make an entry. Writing about Donaire's victory would probably be overrated! = )

The One

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, can you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will t

hink of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or does not exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

***I didn't write this though, just grabbed it from Facebook... I like it because it is ideal. It does not necessarily mean it'll happen or will come true in my life-or that it has happened or is happening now. Isn't it nice?

baby number 2

I've lost a bit of weight when the bf got sick last week. My eating hasn't returned to normal up to now so I'm still not my same old self. I kind of like it because I know I still need to lose at least ten pounds to reach my ideal weight.

The bf just noticed how much weight I lost off because he blurted out this morning if I wanted another baby-and that's after we had breakfast. I was like "What???????????????" No!". He says I've lost a lot of weight and that it was okay if he did because he was sick but I don't have the same excuse. I said I'm fine with the way I look and I don't want to have another baby, at least not yet. He wants me to gain back at least a few pounds because apparently I'm almost getting to the "skinny" stage, which is not even true.

This afternoon he said he was mistaken earlier and that even if I did lose weight, it was just enough.

Whatever!

not that well

The bf was discharged from the hospital last Saturday but he still isn't back to his normal self. Last Monday, he still had bouts of nosebleeds and up to now, he still has a lot of complaints. He really got affected by the dengue virus and is not eating well. He feels lightheaded, is always perspiring but only in the head and does not feel hungry at all. Yesterday, he said he felt nauseous and had a weird headache.

I am worried about it and I hope he'll get better in good time. He's been resting a lot and sleeps well into late morning. We haven't done any biking and I've asked him to slow down with business-related stuff. Luckily, his younger brother is here and has been tremendous help. 

He's due for a return check-up tomorrow and hopefully the doctor can help him.  

everything happens...

I always believe everything happens for a reason. All my life, things didn't and don't always turn out the way I planned or hoped that it would be but still I hold on because I know that in good time, God will provide me with what is meant to be mine.

We all have different paths to take in life but ultimately, He will show us the right way. Time will come when we'll be up and then we'll be down and that's natural. What is important is that we keep faith and believe that what's meant to happen will happen.

*photo from Facebook

keep on smiling = )

I am not a rich person, basing on actual standards. But it is safe to say that I have enough. All my needs, as well as my son's, are met and while I am not that well off, I am content.

I have some friends who have more than I do while I also have friends who are struggling. A friend that belongs to the latter is D. We used to belong to the same group in the past and we have remained friends up to now. He is now married with two children. To say he is poor is not a judgment but a reality. Financially, they are struggling but despite all his difficulties, he always has a very good disposition.

Last Sunday, I saw him and his wife at the supermarket. We talked for a bit about life and children, etc. Part of our conversation included smiling through whatever hardships life may bring. He told me that we should always have a happy countenance. According to him, just because you're poor does not automatically mean you're sad. And whenever I think of that I smile because I know it's true. Different people have their own set of problems. Even the rich get plagued by illnesses, scandals and difficulties. Last week, I hardly ever smiled because I was very much concerned about the bf's condition. Up to now, he isn't fully recovered but at least he's better. D made me think that despite his (the bf) illness, at least he's still breathing. 

So now and every day I will try to keep on smiling through the pain, hurt and sorrow. I know that life is not perfect but God will not give us something that we can't get through. Besides, it takes more muscles to frown than smile- that means lesser wrinkles too!

Smile!

Downton Abbey

If I had the means, I would gladly travel to Great Britain, Rome, South of France, Ireland and New York. But I don't so I make do with television and movies.

Anyway, I heard about the series Downton Abbey in the Lifestyle Network. The station shows it Saturday nights but I don't get to watch it. When I learned there was a Season 2, I decided to download it. And I am so glad I did. It's an exciting series with quite fascinating characters and a good plot. It revolves around the aristocracy and the help of Downton Abbey. It's essentially like every other period drama but with something more.

I am about to finish the first season and am looking forward to the next. Apparently, Season 3 is still in the works so I will have to wait for that.

big baby

Baby: What's that?
Me: This is medicine. (referring to a jar of cream)
Baby: No, it's not. It's peanut butter.


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Me: I have something for you, babe.
Baby: What?
*I'm opening the plastic package...
Baby: That's five thousand pesos?


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Baby: What about the pig in K's house?
Me: Mama is feeding it so it will grow big.
Baby: And then it's going to attack the city?
Me: No, it's going to be lechon for the fiesta!
Baby: Ohhhh...



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Baby: I'm going to kill mine shadow.
Me: Why?
Baby: So it will be gone.
Me: Good luck!


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5,000 and 1

I cannot believe my page views reached the 5,000 mark. Not too long ago, I was happy my ticker got to 100! Hahaha!

Thanks for reading whoever you are even if my posts sucks at times!

Now that the bf's better, I will try my best to keep you up to speed on my boring life!

home

The bf is finally home from the hospital. He got discharged this afternoon and is now resting. Thank God for that.

Whew! Huge sigh of relief!

hospital update

The bf is still confined to the hospital. He was admitted Saturday morning because of dengue fever. He was due to be released on Tuesday but his platelet count dropped considerably. He didn't want to have transfusion but has no choice. He's getting it tomorrow because there is no improvement.

This is rough.

dengue

It is confirmed. The bf has dengue although hopefully he'll be released from the hospital tomorrow. Enough said.

*photo from Facebook

dinner at home

I held my post-birthday dinner last night. It was an intimate affair with family, my girlfriends and family friends. The bf sprang for my lechon because he didn't get me a birthday gift. Hahaha! I only had few dishes prepared because I knew there were few people coming. Two of my girlfriends failed to come because one was pregnant and required bed rest while the other's kids had the flu. The baby had a great time playing with my girlfriends' kids who came and he slept very soundly last night.

It was my cousin's actual birthday so he had his picture taken with my teeny cake and the food to prove that it was his "celebration".

It was fun although the bf couldn't come. He was very sick that night and is still sick up to today. He has the flu and even if I gave him a whole body massage yesterday and is taking medication, his fever still hasn't gone down. I am really worried about it and am tempted to take him to the doctor already.

birthday

My 31st came and went without much fanfare. All I had was rain and cloudy skies. I never really celebrated my birthday although I did spend the entire day with the bf. And that was only because we had to take a business trip. We drove out of town early in the morning to pay for merchandise and we arrived home at around 11pm already. I intend to hold a dinner party tomorrow with my girlfriends as a delayed celebration. It won't be as big as the baby's for sure and hopefully the weather will not be as nasty as it was in the last few days. 

I may have turned another year older but so far nothing's changed so far. Hehe... I still dress and act like I'm in my 20s and I guess it helps keep me feel young even if my birth certificate declares otherwise. Essentially, I am just thankful to be a year older because it means I get to spend more time with the loves of my life. 

fb

not feeling quite good today...

grabbed these photos from Facebook

out of town

My family intended to go out of town for the weekend but it got cancelled because my aunt won't be around. We're supposed to stay in their house but she said to move it next week instead because she's still busy with work. I'm not sure whether we'll push through at all.

My brother didn't want to go because he had school activities and the bf is also indisposed because his mom is confined to the hospital after a mild stroke. Right now, I am stuck at home (as usual) resting and watching the baby take his afternoon nap. I declined my boss' request to work today because I wanted to take a break. I am now going to finish reading David Baldacci's Deliver us from Evil and eat and sleep alternately.

The bf and I are going out of town for my birthday anyway. Yes, I'll be 31 next week although we are not traveling for pleasure but business. Nevertheless, it's okay because I think I'll get to shop by then. Fingers crossed, though. 

Because there'll be a power interruption tomorrow, we plan to head on to one of the new resorts and go swimming. Hopefully the weather will cooperate and give us a bright and shining sun.

like you

Baby: I'm going to kill you, Mommy.

Me: Why are you going to kill me, babe? Don't you like me?

Baby: Ahh... nofing. (meaning nothing)

after a short pause

Baby: I like you, Mommy

**Hahaha! How sweet!**

biking update

The bf and I still bike every morning as long as the weather permits it. We got bored with our daily route and finally upped the ante. 

One morning we did 36 kilometers and it was quite adventurous because we had to pass by houses and dogs and muddy trails. It was mountain biking in every sense of the word. We also took one route wherein we had to carry our bikes across because the bridge was destroyed from last year's typhoon. The current in the river was quite strong and I really had to struggle because my bike was quite heavy-or so I think. Our shoes and socks got wet and the bf actually stepped onto some cow dung. Hahaha! It was a long ride home but the view was spectacular at the top. 

We intend to go up to the shrine tomorrow although I doubt if we will. The rains fell hard today and that means wet ground tomorrow. Nevertheless, it is safe to say that our daily trips are no longer monotonous. In fact, we go wherever we feel like going. We take the long or short route, depending on our energy level.

I love that we can finally manage to go long distances. The bf has always been the stronger biker but I can already keep up with him this time. In two months, there is already progress in terms of our stamina and I have also lost more weight. I would like to think that biking is more effective as compared to running/walking. 

books!

So true...

*photo from Facebook/bookriot

naughty boy

My nephew has always been hard to manage and I don't know. Compared to the baby, he is the Tasmanian Devil. It's alright if he is just in our company because we can manage him but it is another story in school. I am the only one who takes and fetches them from school and I am the the one that teacher talks to when he misbehaves.

During the first week of school, the nephew apparently was very unruly. The head teacher talked to me and said they only wanted to inform us. I said we already know his behavior but we thought he was okay in school. They already separate the baby and him during activities because he is a bad influence. I was embarassed because he is my nephew and somehow reflects on me. According to the teachers, the baby is very well behaved and follows instructions all the time. He is sometimes influenced by his cousin but not anymore. 

I always remind them to behave on our way to school and the baby listens to me. The nephew is another story and just this morning, he was involved in a fight with another student. I was wondering what happened because he was last to go out. I do not know what to do and part of me is hoping the teacher will ban him from school already. Hahaha! My sister and her husband cannot control him and in fact, no yaya will last long in their employ.

fifty shades

I haven't read Fifty Shades of Grey but my cousin had this book so I borrowed it. I already read reviews of that book and it wasn't good, in my opinion. I had no more book to read so I decided to read Fifty Shades Freed. Even if I haven't read the first two, I really didn't miss out much.

The book was half about sex and the rest about Christian Grey and Anastasia alternately fighting and making up with splashes of ostentatiousness and extravagance in between. It was not a book worth buying although it did have entertainment value. Other than that, it sucked. I do not suggest paying money to get this book. If you really want to read the books in the series just borrow it because you shouldn't include this in your collection. If you are into S and M, then go ahead, you will enjoy it. Otherwise, don't bother.

*photo from eminethe1st.blogspot.com

weekend

The day after the baby's birthday is my girlfriend's birthday. The night before, we planned on having lunch together but finally decided on a breakfast birthday. It was simple, relaxing and fun. The food was breakfast fare and I requested for puto, tsokolate and sardines. I also brought in food from the party. My other girlfriend brought chocolates, almonds, pistachios and cashews so we were really full. It was just us at my friend's house although I had to leave early because it's Saturday and that mean's "visit the uncle" day. I no longer ate lunch there, only fed the baby.

When I got home, I took a catnap and then spent quality time with the bf. We had a busy week and weren't able to spend much time together after arriving from the metro. I was busy with the party and he was busy with business and that just won't do. We had a good time and then I capped off my day with a whole body massage. It was so relaxing, I actually slept in the middle of the session.

Sunday means bike, church and then lay back afterwards. The baby and I stopped by McDonald's to get breakfast and there I saw our walking/running buddies. They were inquiring about what happened to us so I told them we already do biking. I am now at home, alternating between TV, computer, eating and sleeping. This is the life.

party party

The baby's party was great last Friday. The food turned out to be plenty and absolutely delicious. I didn't really taste all the dishes because I hardly eat when it's our party but the ones I tasted were yummy. Most of the guests were raving about the food as well so that's a relief. My mom's friend really impressed us with her simple dishes that were packed with flavor. It's quite funny that the LPG we use for the oven didn't run out. We've been using it for over a year already but it's still not empty. About three dishes were baked there, not to mention the baked scallops I made. The scallops were a hit too, especially since the number was limited. Yes, scallops can be expensive.

I didn't really put up a kiddie party but I gave away loot bags and balloons, had cupcakes and ice cream for the kids and a pinata filled with candies. The party hats were forgotten (lucky I only got 12!)

My mom invited her friends over and they had a blast. My girlfriends came too but they left early. Some of the people I invited didn't show up but that's okay. Overall, the party was a success and even the baby had a good time.

i'm back!

I arrived last night from our trip. I was knocked out right away and went to sleep way before the baby did. I even forgot to take a Stresstab multivitamin before bed. I had just eaten dinner and didn't want to drink vitamins right away. I slept for eleven hours straight which is really good because I lacked sleep for two night's straight.

The baby's party will be tomorrow and everything's all set, I think. I have yet to get drinks and ice cream but other than that, everything's good. I decided not to hold a party in the baby's school because I was still tired when I awoke this morning. I failed to ask his teacher about holding a party when I fetched him today. Maybe next year.

I was planning to get a massage earlier but decided to wait. I know I'll still be tired tomorrow so I'll wait till Saturday before getting one.

Nothing exciting happened on the trip save for the heavy traffic and flooding at Banawe last Monday. The weather was really bad that night and even in the morning of Tuesday. But on our travel home, the weather was good already. We also had two interruptions (vehicle related) that delayed our trip but other than that, everything went as expected. By the way, I saw the ex-bf at the airport last Monday. He was also heading for the metropolis and I saw him as I was about to board the plane. I was waiting for the bf because he still had to return the vehicle to the shop. I was watching him get inside the pre-departure area and when I turned, the ex-bf walked in. I didn't acknowledge his presence and pretended not to see him. The bf didn't notice him as well.

again

We're finally going to travel tomorrow after almost two months. The bf is excited to leave because he's got a lot on his list. I am not that interested in traveling because it's the baby's birthday week and I've got so much to do. Not really. Hahaha! I already got baby's outfit except for shoes and I'm getting stuff for the loot bag today so that's it. I'll be home on Wednesday so I still have enough time, I think.

The food's going to be cooked by my mom's friend, there's cake and I intend to buy ice cream on the day itself. I am still debating whether to get cupcakes. I'm still not sure. I also have to ask the baby's teacher if I should hold a party in school. I don't really want to, maybe next year.

Because I'm a procrastinator, I'll wait till the last minute to get all the stuff necessary. Even if I do procrastinate, I'm a good planner. I'll keep you posted when it's done.

tgifs

Last Friday night, I got drunk. Hahaha! What a statement!

It was at my cousin's thanksgiving party for passing the Nurses Board Exam and there was an open bar. I only had two glasses of Margarita which is my favorite drink ever but it got me sloshed. I think it was partly because I didn't really like the food much so I ate only a little. It was a catered affair but the dishes they picked weren't all that good. The bartender wanted me to get one last drink but I refused. I still had to drive! Plus, I drank a bit of flavored beer because my cousin wanted me to try it. I haven't really had alcohol in several months so my body already forgot how to react to it.

When I got home, I was buzzed. It took me awhile to sleep and I was just always peeing. But sleep I did and woke up four hours after to bike early Saturday morning. I popped a multivitamin and was good to go.

In the afternoon, we had to attend a wedding. It was the wedding of my brother in law's younger brother and I was tasked to be the commentator. My sister told me not to wear anything too sexy. As if. I wore a navy blue dress with my nude pumps. My feet literally killed me afterwards.

We got home early and I was looking forward to having a good night's sleep. My friend E called me at 10 to invite me out again but I refused. I didn't want to see the ex-bf again and I really needed to rest. I'm glad I did because I slept well.

I am going to get a massage later on. I think I really need it.

celebuzzz

-I'm sad that Michael Clarke Duncan passed away. He was a nice person (in my opinion) and was really good in The Green Mile.

-It's funny how Heidi Klum is dating her bodyguard now. I guess she finally couldn't stand Seal's face even after annual vow renewal!

-I am amazed at Senator Sotto's "plagiarism" fiasco. He's just making palusot when he translated the speech of Sen. Robert Kennedy's speech into Filipino. As per Facebook, he's nothing but a second-rate trying hard copy-paste!

-I'm not sure if this is true but LeAnn Rimes's husband Eddie Cibrian is apparently cheating on her. You know what they say about people who cheat with you. Yes, they're bound to cheat on you too.

proofread

My boss always reminds us to proofread our work before sending it. I do proofread my work but I do it only once so there are some errors that I miss. I'm sometimes too tired (or lazy) to re-check so boohoo!

Anyway, I read some of my previous entries here and indeed there are errors that I failed to correct. For that I am truly sorry. I will try my best to make error-free posts in the future. The operative word being try. Hahaha!

etc, etc...

I am not in the pink of health these days as I've got a nasty cold that's been bugging me for three days. I don't really like taking cold medication but I have no choice. I am sneezing like crazy and my eyes are always ready to close. I want to spend all day just sleeping but I can't. I have to work and fulfill lots of obligations, first of which is to take and fetch the baby from school.

On top of that, I lost my Internet connection yesterday afternoon. I was only delayed in payment for three days but Smart couldn't wait. I ended up finishing work in an Internet cafe then in my aunt's house last night. My connection returned this noontime so everything's back to normal. Too bad for the baby who missed his nightly YouTube viewing. He loves watching Trainsformers and Power Rangers videos.

The weather in our place probably contributes to my cold. It's hot in the morning and noon time and rains in the afternoon and evening. This lousy weather has got my head spinning and I don't know what to wear. Hahaha! Yesterday, I wore a three-quarter sleeved top in the morning and had to change because the sun shone brightly. By 5pm, it was raining like crazy. Oh well...

watchathink?

*photo from facebook

back 2 school

The baby and his cousin will be going back to school tomorrow. They have finally decided to go back because they realized how boring it is to stay home day in and day out. I already went to the school this afternoon and everything is all set.

It means I'm back to being a driver again but its okay I guess. It's better than having to amuse the baby every day. Hopefully, he'll learn how to write this time.

friday night

I went out again the next day, Friday. This time, I was with my girlfriends. We were supposed to have dinner only but plans always go awry. We ended up eating at the mall's foodcourt and out to a bar for drinks. I didn't drink beer this time, just good old Cali Ice. This is one of my favorite non-alcoholic drinks ever.

We had a good time at the bar, eating pica-pica and laughing out loud. We even chanced upon a college classmate and caught up with her too. One of girlfriends is a new mother and does not want to leave her baby for long. We broke up at around 9pm--yes, that early! But it was just in perfect timing because right before we went home, earthquake struck. It was mild, hardly even felt but it was long, about a minute or so. When I got in the house, I asked my mom but she didn't really feel it and so did my dad. My brother texted if I felt the earthquake and if I was home because he was out too. The earthquake was really miles from our city but still it scared some of the residents here.

It was nice being with my girlfriends again. We've sort of made a pact to meet at least once a month. In a couple of week's they'll be here in the house for the baby's birthday bash.

thursday night

After so long, I finally went on a night out. It was something unplanned but turned out to be one of the best nights ever.

Last Sunday, I chanced upon my ex-bf's nephew, E, at the supermarket. We have always been great friends ever since I was in a relationship with his uncle. Even after we broke up, we maintained our friendship. He was back in town for a quick vacation for work and we agreed to meet up later. I was still going to the wake of my friend's father and then we would go out afterwards. My folks just dropped me at the funeral parlor. I called up my brother to fetch so I could get my own wheels before going out. When I got home, the baby was sick with fever. He was so hot so I gave him medication and decided not to go out anymore. I texted E and asked for a rain check.

He had told me he was leaving on the 30th but before that date, I totally forgot to set up another outing. By 7.30 pm on Thursday, he called me up. He was inviting me to join him, his brother and his girlfriend and the ex-bf. I wasn't too keen on going out but he told me he was taking the 10pm boat. I agreed to follow them because I realized I wouldn't be out long anway.

It was awkward seeing the ex-bf but fine, I guess. He always wanted to remain friends with me but I didn't want anything to do with him anymore. He was there for about an hour only because his wife (yes, he's married already!) didn't want him to go apparently. She did go to the resto and saw me there. By that time also, he was gone so she just left.

We stayed there until midnight and it was the first time I drank since last October of last year. I have been living quite healthily this year but I also didn't want to be such a killjoy. Anyway we were only drinking light beer. I had such fun laughing and talking and drinking with the group. Their uncle and aunt swung by as well so it was nice. They always liked me from way back when because they thought I was nice and well-mannered. E often tells the ex-bf if you had to marry you should have married C (meaning me). I jokingly retorted I am so glad he didn't. To be honest, I have no regrets breaking up with him. He was not "the one" I was looking for and will never ever be.

I'm glad I went out last Thursday even if I only slept for five hours because I had to go biking in the morning. I didn't let the bf know I was going out so I had no excuse. What I did was to pop a multivitamin before I left to exercise in the morning and it helped. Hanging out with friends is always good for the soul.

anytime

I wake up at 5:30 every morning because we exercise early. The bf and I go biking for about 21 kilometers daily (I need to edit my previous post). I know this because my bike has an odometer/speedometer and it measures the distance I go.

Waking up this early can be difficult especially for someone like me who loves to sleep. My body is aching when I awake and I would much rather continue sleeping. I also cannot wake up without an alarm clock. There was one time I forget to set the alarm, I ended up starting really late.

But when I am already on my way, I take the time to pray. Yes, I pray while biking and I am able to say my thanks to the Lord for the wonderful day ahead of me. I cannot pray when I wake up because my mind is still disoriented. But when I feel the cold wind blowing, I am happy to be alive and then I pray. I also pray anytime during the day, when I am not doing anything or when something is bothering me.

There are so many things that I wish that I had but I have way more blessings. God takes care of me, my baby, my family and friends. The fact that we are all healthy and at peace every day is enough. Whatever problems that come my way are welcome because they will always have a solution. I am glad I have a strong faith because this means I can accept anything that comes my way. Life is difficult but God will always make it easier. More importantly, He never fails.

thanks Paulo Coelho

you're not chismosa

I mentioned going to the Wednesday market this morning. It is about 20 kilometers from the city and we got there in time for lunch. We alternate between two food stalls and they probably recognize the bf and I because we've been going there for years.

After eating, the bf went to get lechon to take home. I was waiting for him in the stall and the owner talked to me. Here's our conversation-I'll translate it in English for easy comprehension.

Her: You've been coming here long and you still don't have kids.
Me: Oh we do, we have one child but he's still young.
Her: Really, I didn't see you get pregnant.
Me: I already gave birth when we started coming here.
Her: I see...

I guess she was wondering why it was only the bf and I that go to the market. The reason is there is no point bringing the baby because he won't eat any of the food they serve anyway.

sorry

I'm sorry for not posting anything these past few days. It's been a long three days for me because I've been swamped with work. I haven't done else these days.

• The baby's birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks or so and I haven't ordered any cake, balloons or anything at all. I intend to do it next Saturday when I won't have to work.
• The baby is sick with fever and cough. I am planning to take him to his pediatrician tomorrow because I think I've waited too long.
• I've been biking for 17 days straight. The bf does not believe in "days off" so we bike even on weekends. In the weeks past, we had a day off once a week but not anymore.
  
• Hormones have made me crave for chicken salad and ice box cake. I also love eating Cheese Rings these days.
• The baby already knows how to use Youtube and he spends hours on my computer watching a lot of videos.
• The bf and I finally got to go out of town this morning for the "Wednesday market" where we had lechon, tinola and kinilaw na isda. Yummy!
  

birthday, pee and rude

Me: Babe, it's C's birthday today. She's 6 years old. (C is my female mini pinscher) Let's sing Happy Birthday.
Baby: It's C's birthday? Where's her party?

**nice question!**
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We're in the car, on the way home from church.

Me: I really need to pee.
Baby: Me too.
Me: You're wearing diaper.
Baby: Oh.

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We're walking to the store.

Baby: Mommy, who's that? (pointing to a house where the owner is visible sitting in her wheelchair)
Me: Don't point baby. It's rude.
Baby: It's a rude house?


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things to do

I don't have anything planned tomorrow but here's my list so far:

- go to church
- put on hair treatment and exfoliate
- watch downloaded movies
- eat puto and tsokolate for breakfast
- eat paklay (it's a local beef dish that I haven't eaten in a long time that my mom's going to cook tomorrow)
- withdraw salary from ATM
- sleep
- get a body massage
- buy baby's supplies for the week i.e. Oreo, cookies, milk, diaper, etc.

I don't know if I'll do this all but I do know I can definitely fulfill the eating part.

loss and death

I never liked people dying. Who does, right? Dying is inevitable and everybody will have to die eventually. Still, that does not make the whole ordeal easy. What I hate about dying is the fact that the person is gone forever. You'll never be able to see the person, touch, hug or kiss him. Even if they remain in your thoughts, they are still gone.

Last Saturday, I was watching the weekend news and saw the breaking report about Sec. Robredo's plane going down. I knew right there and then that he was dead. It was a logical conclusion considering it was a plane that crashed in the water. The probability of him being alive was very slim. My suspicions were confirmed when his remains were found. That news made me sad because I always liked him. We weren't friends but when I saw him on TV, he was very nice. He was very intelligent and always had a happy countenance.

I really hate how people who are good die young. They could have done even greater things but death took that away. Not only will their family miss them but all the people whose lives they touched. I know everyone will get over the loss eventually. But for now, I am one with all those who are grieving for his passing.

minute to win it

I watch the game show "Minute to Win It". I don't really catch it every night but I've seen it enough to leave a lasting effect on the baby.

Now, everytime he does something, he follows the host's lines. Whether he is going to run outside, play with his toys or turn on the air conditioning, he says the following:

"You got a minute to win it. Good wuck. The game begins in three, two, one. Eeeeng."

At the start, it used to be funny. Now it's getting old. Hehe... Bad mommy!

last meal

I saw The Expendables 2 last night and it was such fun. Anyway, in the movie, they were asked what their last meals would be if they had to choose. That got me to thinking what my last meal would be. I don't really have sophisticated tastes and when forced to answer, I'd probably say lechon skin and dinuguan. I am a sucker for lechon skin. I barely eat the meat and only eat the ribs if it is absolutely delicious. I choose dinuguan or pork blood stew especially if my grandfather cooks it. It's his specialty.

On second thought, I could probably included baked ziti, chocolate gelato and corn muffins in my list as well. What about you? What would you eat on your last meal?

say sorry

The bf's brother arrived yesterday from the metropolis. His brother asked him to fetch him from the airport and so he did. His brother had no checked in luggage so he was able to get in the truck right away. Our airport here is small. The arrival area has very limited space and parking is at a minimum. As they were preparing to leave, the policeman signaled the bf to go ahead. He couldn't proceed yet because a mother and son tandem was crossing in front of his vehicle. The bf waited until the boy had moved to the side before going. He was surprised to have hit something in front of him. The truck actually lurched and he was scared for a teeny bit. When he opened his windows, he saw that he had hit the boy's trolley. The mom and the bf exchanged words and he was asked to move to the side. The bf being himself, didn't stop but went on ahead.

This morning, he was called to the police station because the mom apparently filed a complaint. The bf went alone and they settled the matter amicably. The complainant didn't expect to be remunerated for the trolley but only wanted an apology. from him The bf willingly gave it to her and it was over in just a few minutes. Oooopps!

don't like

Are there people you don't like just because? I do. I have several on my list actually. By the way, these are local showbiz celebrities I just can't stand. What brought about this post is seeing Piolo Pascual on TV. You know the ad about Sunshorts. I may be a client of Sun Life but I just don't want to see Piolo asking me to watch those movies. I deliberately did not watch those because of him. Crazy right?

I don't know why I don't like, him prolly because he's gay. Hahaha! I do not discriminate against gays but I hate his hypocrisy. Everybody knows he's not heterosexual (anymore, because he has a son!) so why does he think he can fool us? Other people included in my list are Angel Locsin, Pia Guanio, Toni Gonzaga, Richard Guttierez, among others. I don't have a valid reason for not liking them other than the fact that I just don't. So sue me!

broken hearted Andrea

The bf and I live in different places. I live in the city while he's in the next municipality. But the distance is not great, just a couple of kilometers or so. Him going to my place or vice versa does not take ten minutes. Basically, I live in A and he lives in B and we bike to C, which is another municipality.

We bike daily for about one and a half hours. It takes me one hour to get to the C town plaza and it takes him about 50-55 minutes. Going back home is a breeze at only 30 minutes. When we reach the plaza, we take about 10 to 15 minutes to rest. It's our time to talk about the people we see, events of last night, etc. (Totally unrelated by the way, but I met the ex-bf this morning. He said hi and I ignored him!)

I always get to our pit stop first because the bf takes the longer route. Last week, I saw a piece of paper held in place by a rock. It was a letter addressed "to girls" written by a broken hearted girl named Andrea. I regret not taking a photo of the letter which was in Filipino. It wasn't correct in spelling or grammar but the pain was evident. It was the story of a girl who trusted a boy who ultimately broke her heart.

I found it silly and useless because everyone will have his or her heart broken hearted at one point or another. Maybe it was Andrea's first love and she viewed her lovelife with rose-colored glasses. But whatever! Life is bad enough as it is and having a broken heart should be the least of anyone's worries. We weren't the first to read the note as somebody had written on it saying it was crap. My sentiments exactly.

torrential

I have written that we hadn't had rain in about two weeks. That changed last night.

Last Thursday, we went to my aunt's house to celebrate my grandfather's 85th birthday. The party was for family only and was held outdoors. The night was stifling hot and we had a feeling it was going to rain. It didn't. Last night, I needed to get medication so I went to the pharmacy. Because I am lazy, I didn't bother to change and simply put on a jacket on top of my house clothes. I didn't bother using the car because I know I wasn't going to be out long. I just used the motorcycle. As I was driving, the air felt different. The wind was blowing steadily and there were no stars in the sky. I had the same feeling of rain. When I got home, I prepared for bed and was asleep by 10pm. I was awoken at 11pm to the sound of really strong downpour. It felt as if all the rain stored up in the clouds came down at one time. Combined with lightning and thunder, I felt as if it wasn't going to stop. But stop it did, after thirty minutes.

When I woke up this morning, there was still an indication of rain the night before but the sun was out. Up to now, the sun is shining brightly with no hint of dark skies. It's as if last night's rain was a fluke. I have no problem with rain as long as it falls in the night. Mind you, I don't want my exercise time disrupted.

uninspired

Do you ever have days when you don't feel like getting out of bed? You don't want to face the world and all you want to do is curl up and sleep? I have some of those days too. It's not because I am depressed, more like uninspired.

Today is one of those days. I just feel tired and lazy and I don't want to do anything. I am not looking forward to writing, surfing the web, reading a book or cooking. It's like all I want to do is not do anything at all. I know it's bad because, here I am quite healthy, with complete facilities and yet I am not being productive. There are so many people struggling with so many problems and disabilities yet they are all doing their best to get by. But I also have to accept that I cannot force myself. Instead, I say a prayer and hope that I will feel much better later in the day. Oh, I can be a real trouper and churn out ten articles hours before the deadline, spend time with my son and the bf and act as if nothing is wrong. I will also be in the company of my family later on and celebrate my grandfather's birthday. But at some point this feeling will resurface and I will have to deal with it again.

intense heat

The weather in our city has been quite hot. There hasn't been any rains in the last two weeks. It is nice to have the sun shining day by day, considering the really bad weather in the metropolis and the rest of Luzon.

I have experienced several headaches due to the heat but I will accept it rather than have wet weather. I am really saddened by the news of flooding, hunger and too much trash. Every day, the news channels are always featuring places submerged in water and people, especially kids, who are suffering.

I am hoping the weather will improve in the rest of the country soon and hope that the Filipino will learn from the lessons of nature. God bless us all!

fight

I don't always talk about the fights the bf and I have because there are hardly any. We don't fight like most couples because there is no reason to. But I was mad at him last Sunday and told him so. The bf and I had a huge fight last Monday. It sort of reminded me why we barely fight and that is because sometimes, fights can get dirty.

Of course, we made up just as easily. The bf is not one for grudges and he always tells me what he says in the heat of the moment may not necessarily be the truth. Still, some of the words we exchange can hurt. I am one to hold grudges and never forget but I have learned not to be that type of person anymore. Last night, I was still a little miffed but I got over it already.

The bf and I are now at peace and things are back to normal. I guess it's nice to have an argument every so often, if only to remind ourselves of what we mean to each other and what we have to do to stay together.

meal time

I made this carbonara pasta last week, I think (not to sure) I didn't mae this from scratch, which proved to be a bad idea. I used Del Monte's Carbonara sauce and it wasn't too creamy or yummy. I put in bacon and button mushrooms in it but still wasn't too good. I toasted a bit of garlic to add a bit of flavor.

One night, I felt like drinking Jollibee's Chocolate float but was too lazy to go and buy and it would be more expensive to have it delivered. I decided to make my own using Milo 3-in-1. I also added a scoop of chocolate ice cream in place of the vanilla ice cream. Yum yum!

This was my dinner last Thursday. Mushroom soup, cheesedog waffle and garden salad. Oh and don't forget my favorite dinner date: a paperback. I had a really nice meal. = )

bike pics

I am finally uploading pics of my new bike. How does it look compared to the junky old thing down below?

Great upgrade, right? And the new one provides a better ride too. The bf got us new bike seats too because the seat that came with the bike was really hard and gave such a sore front and behind. Trust me, the first ride was brutal!

cold, freeze and basura

Me: I have a cold, babe.
Baby: We have to get someping. We need a blanket Mommy, so you will not get cold.

(awww... mistunderstood much?)

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Me: It's very cold in the bedroom babe.
Baby: Yes, we're freeze.
Me: It's not freeze, babe. We'll get frozen. Not freeze.
Baby: It's not frozen Mommy, it's freeze. Stop talking.

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I'm watching TV Patrol

Me: Look babe, the place is so dirty.
Baby: It's the basura.
Me: Yes, there's plenty of trash.
Baby: It's the basura!

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food for thought

image from facebook

me time

I'm comfortable in my own company and I'm happy to be alone. I constantly do that and I even go eat in restaurants by my lonesome. I am not bothered by it because there are time when I crave silence. Besides, I get to go where I want to and eat what I want without asking my companions whether they approve of the place or not.

I haven't done that in a while because life gets in the way. There are things to do, places to go to and there is not enough time for me. But I intend to change that tomorrow. I plan to go out and actually give myself the time that I crave and deserve. I won't go out at night but rather during the day, lunch to be more precise. I am looking forward to having a good meal and a good time all by myself. No distractions, just me with delicious food and a good book. Can't hardly wait!

cancelled

Last Monday, I was working on a task. It was a bit challenging for me but I was able to do it. It took me about three hours to finish the task. As I was proofreading what I wrote, I got a text from my boss saying the task was cancelled. I wanted to scream in frustration because it meant I had to work all over again. I wanted to insist on the task he assigned but I knew it wasn't possible.

I was so pi***d!!! I didn't work on the task he sent afterwards until it was evening. It took me another three hours to complete it. The next day, I didn't work. Hahahaha! Actually, it wasn't payback but rather because the bf and I had to go out of town.

I have learned my lesson well. Rather than work early, I have decided to begin working around 10 am. At least if I work late, I won't be finished right away. Whatever cancellations that may come will not be as painful because I haven't completed it yet.

excuses, excuses

It is safe to say that I am lazy. If I wasn't I'd have all the photos I'm supposed to upload in my computer, I'd be posting at least daily and I'd have a life! Hahaha! Unfortunately, I have done none of the above. My photos are still in the camera, I didn't post anything over the weekend and I am almost always in my bedroom.

I am not not exactly making any excuses for my behavior because this is what I am. Whenever I think of writing an exciting post, I tend to forget about it the next day. I don't really go anywhere so I can't blog about people or places I see. Instead of doing a post, I spend hours watching downloaded television shows or sleeping. I think of food I want to eat but end up eating what our help made because it's too much effort.

This probably part of the reason why I'm always broke because I'm not working hard enough. Hahaha! I make just enough and it's all gone in two days. I have plans of becoming a better person but I don't know where to begin. Being a lawyer is out because I no longer want to be a student. I am contemplating getting a real job, one that requires me to dress up and go to the office but I don't have the proper motivation yet.

Yes, I am lazy and making too many excuses. But forgive me for being human.

no other woman

No Other Woman was one of the hit movies of 2011 or 2012? I'm not really sure as I didn't watch it in the theater. The bf didn't want to watch it with me, nor did any of my family members express an interest. My girlfriends already saw it and truthfully, I wasn't too keen on watching.

Last Sunday, it was shown on Cinema One. (I seem to be a regular of this channel these days...) I saw it while flipping channels and decided to watch. Again, I missed about ten minutes of the beginning but I don't think I missed much. It was funny because Cristine Reyes looked so poor next to Anne Curtis. She spoke in Tagalog while Ann talked in English. Her clothes were dowdy and cheap. It was your typical wife-husband-mistress movie and there were no surprises at all. I didn't like how Derek got angry at Ann in the end, acting as if it was only her fault. But then again, that's how movies are.

All I can say is this: I'm glad I didn't spend a hundred bucks to watch this movie in the theater. It wasn't worth it, save for a few laughs.

concerns

- The baby hasn't been eating quite well these past few days. He has lost weight and only likes to eat Koko Krunch, Oreo and donuts. I am thinking of letting him drink Propan TLC again.

- I am broke yet again. This isn't new. Since the bf and I don't share finances, I am at a loss. Hopefully, things will turn around next month since it'll be the baby's birthday!

- I hurt myself last week when I fell off my bike! Hahaha! I didn't tell anyone but the baby what happened. The skin in my right knee was scraped off and it hurts like hell. It'll soon be healed but I still can't wear shorts. I've been wearing capris and jeans for a week already and I hate it!

- The bf has been having problems with the business and that affects me too. Sales are slow and have been for the past month. We haven't traveled in almost three weeks for that reason. Although he is still optimistic, he is already considering a shift in another industry.

relationship thoughts

The bf and I are always together every day. We start out with our daily exercise. During the past seven months we were running/walking, now we're back to biking. After that it's time for business. There are times when the day's schedule is frantic and we have so many things to do and so many places to go to during the day. There are also times when we have nothing to do. We can spend an entire afternoon just talking or sleeping or eating, depending on the mood.

We weren't this comfortable with each other at the start. What with our age difference and dissimilar interests, it is but natural. But that no longer holds true today. Despite our differences, we find common ground and interests. Now, we are content to sit in silence together. We don't have to always talk all the time. He also tries gives in to some of my quirks, understands when I am just in the mood for pasta even if he is craving for lomi and all that stuff.  We don't always do exciting things on normal days but we always make it a point to be together daily. We only take breaks on Sunday but that is only after our exercise.

He is thankful that I am very supportive of all his business ventures. I am the woman behind the successful man, as cliche it may sound. I do a lot of things behind the scenes and I am fine with that. Despite the moments when I feel that I should get married and I will have to end things with the bf, I don't think I can do it yet. I have devoted six years of my life with him and we already have a child. These are things that you can't let go of lightly and right now, I have no plans to do so. The only problem is that nothing ever happens to our liking. Whatever happens, there is always a reason so I try to keep an open mind and heart. I try to cherish every moment I spend with the bf and hope that whatever happens we'll get through it. Through thick and thin, sick and sin.

tuesday hole

Today is Tuesday and the weather's still bad. The rain still beats the sun hands down, although it shone bright during lunch time. I didn't like working early in the day and thus I started working only at 4 in the afternoon. I had to stop after half an hour because I needed to take my mom to the farmer's market. I was able to finish work by 7.30 in the evening, stopping only for dinner.

The bf and I still went biking this morning even if the rain would pour intermittently. It wasn't really pouring hard and it felt good to sweat a bit. We didn't go biking yesterday because the bf had to get lab work done early. The results were not too good as his uric acid and cholesterol levels shot up.

But what I find funny is the fact that I was wearing a shirt with a hole in the back. I like this ukay-ukay shirt I got for only 50 pesos. A lady comes by the house bringing stuff to sell and I bought this one because the cloth was cool and white. I wore it today and tucked it in my jeans as it was a bit lose. I had gone to the mall twice now knowing about it. My mom only mentioned it this afternoon so I said I'll put my hair down to cover it (although it was already too late, I think) Hahaha! The hole wasn't really that big but it was pretty obvious. Ooops!

ay sus ko!

Baby: Mommy, I want Disney Channel.
Me: Okay.

The show on Disney is 101 Dalmatians.

Me: That's a nice movie, babe.
Baby: I like Nickewodeon.
Me: Disney Channel is better. That's a funny movie with dogs.
Baby: Ay sus ko! (Hay naku! in Tagalog)

Hahaha!

worries

I am a person who tries to be practical about everything. But there are just some things that scare me and right now, a matter about the bf is bugging me. It's really serious and could put him at very high risk. Honestly, I am quite scared but I don't know what to do about it. I try to pray and hope for the best but I am still worrying whenever I think about it. My heart pounds and I am really, really freaked out. I succeed in pushing it out of my mind for a few hours but it comes back again. I am only at peace when I am with the bf because that will assure me that he is safe. 

Although I know things always work out in good time, I am only human. Fortunately, I found this from St. Paul about worrying and somehow lifts my spirit a bit:

Don't worry about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, make all your requests known unto God and the peace that passes all understanding will fill your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

bed weather

I stayed in bed most of the weekend. It was and still is perfect bed weather, what with the cool rains and dark clouds. What else is there to do? I alternated between reading, sleeping and watching downloaded shows. I already finished watching Suburgatory and am now halfway through Parenthood Season 3. I went out yesterday afternoon to go to the bank because my funds were running low and I had to get supplies for the baby. Then I went to Book Sale because I no longer had any books to read. The bf and I also got hot chocolate and bread for afternoon snacks but other than those outings, I was in the bedroom most of the time.

Luckily, I was still able to bike in the mornings as the rain sort of stops and goes. This morning though, the bf and I were drenched as we rode uphill. He insisted on going to an exclusive subdivision up in the mountains because apparently, the view was great. I couldn't ride my bike because it was really difficult for me so I just walked instead. It took us about ten minutes to get there and rain poured really hard. I told him I was never going to do this again-ever. I was both perspiring from my exertions and wet from the rain. Ugh! Going home was the best part, though. Going downhill does not require any effort, save for having to keep your brakes in check.

I haven't really been able to watch the weather forecast in the last three days so I don't know if all these rains are caused by a low pressure area or what. I'm not really complaining because it's nice to be snuggling and not do anything but a little sun won't be bad tomorrow. I am back to work again tomorrow and it won't be good if the weather remains bed, or bad rather. Crossing my fingers for that!

image by imageshack.us

I try to sleep early at night because I wake up early the next morning. I'm the type of person who counts the number of hours I sleep because I believe proper rest is necessary. Last night, the baby slept in my parent's bedroom because he was sick with fever. He didn't want to see me or talk to me and I was banished and told to go to my bedroom. I just watched television, frequently switching channels to find the right show. I like Rocco's Dinner Party on 2nd Avenue so I saw it. After it was finished, I changed to Lifestyle Network where Guilliana and Bill was showing. I find Bill cute so I watched for bit. I felt it was too scripted so I decided to watch AXN instead but didn't like the show. I continued flipping channels until I saw this movie on Cinema One. 

I didn't get to watch the movie from the start but I already knew what it was about. I know it's an old movie but I never really got the chance to watch it then. So I did and I alternately laughed and cried. It was a realistic enough movie and the actors were great. For me, it just proved that you only get to fulfill a bucket list if you are well of. After all, she lives in a condo, drives a Fortuner and wasn't working. I don't really know what her work was before she got sick, only that she could afford to fly off to Hong Kong on a whim. But the essence of the movie was there. That you could either fight death or learn to accept it. Rather than wallow in pity, you should embrace the remaining time you have and spend it with people that matter most to you. It made me ask myself what would I prefer?  To know I was dying so I could prepare for it or to die instantly. Up to now, I still can't decide. 

The movie ended at around 11 pm already and that meant only six hours of sleep for me. But it was okay because my time was well spent, I think.

grabbed this from Facebook and made me laugh out loud!

in pain

I am in pain. The bf and I went back to biking again because his doctor ordered him to stop running and walking. Apparently, his weight was too much for his legs/feet and actually exacerbates the pain he feels from high uric acid levels and mild arthritis.

Because of this, the bf got me a new bike yesterday and we went biking this morning. My new bike is more expensive and definitely much better than the old one in terms of riding and speed. Unfortunately, the seat sucks. It is really painful and I think my bottom is bruised. I actually wrapped a face towel in the seat but it wasn't much help. The bf was so excited to bike again that he was threatening to go again this afternoon. I had to beg off because I was really tired. I even had to take medication to make me feel better. Manny Pacquiao is right, Alaxan FR really works. Hahaha!

I'll post my new bike pics later, I'm just too tired.

pesta

I read Terry McMillan's "How Stella Got Her Groove Back". This is an old book, way back in 1995 but I only bought it this month at Book Sale. Anyway, Stella went to Jamaica where people would say pesta instead of pasta. Whatever.

Here's two versions of pesta that I cooked last week. My mom had leftover elbow macaroni and I decided to make good use of it.

The first version is creamy garlic from McCormick. It wasn't creamy nor garlicky, I'm afraid. The recipe called for a cup of fresh milk in addition to the powder but it was disappointing. The baby's yaya polished off my leftovers . = ) I used luncheon meat (because it was the only meat I could find) and added bell peppers.

The next day, I had pesta again but in the traditional sense. I used spaghetti sauce, a bit tomato sauce, ground meat and bacon with onions and bell pepper. This was delish. It was sweet, just the way I like it and filling. I made a bigger batch because I got a bigger spaghetti sauce pouch and my mom was able to save some for her midnight snack.

finally

Forever 21 has been around since forever. Hahaha! Seriously, Forever 21 wasn't like this when I was still working in the metropolis. I remember buying a tan jacket at their small boutique in Megamall, way back 2003. After 8 years or so, Forever 21 became one of the most popular brands in the country. Although it is available in the Visayas, I was unable to shop because when the bf and I would travel to Cebu, there is never enough time.

I finally got my chance last week and boy, did I get dizzy. I couldn't find anything worth buying. I don't know if it was because I was old already or because I was fat. The clothes they had just weren't that good in my opinion. All they had were racerbacks and shirts and dresses that were made of who-knows-what. And it seemed overpriced considering the design and materials the clothes were made of. It took me about an hour going through most of the stuff they had for sale until I decided on these two. I got the top because it looked cute, especially the back part. The jeans I purchased because I was planning on getting a new pair anyway and at Php555, it was a steal.

I haven't worn the top yet but the jeans were disappointing. For one, it was too manipis. It was not real denim, in my opinion, because just too light. Plus, it was loose on me. I was looking for size 29 but couldn't find any. I'll have to have it altered, I guess.

So I said to myself: it's okay if you don't get to shop at Forever 21 anytime soon because you won't find anything you like anyway. =)

life quotes

“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.”
― Robert Frost

“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.”
― André Gide, Autumn Leaves

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

“I'm the one that's got to die when it's time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.”
― Jimi Hendrix

“Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know I'm not perfect
-and I don't live to be-
but before you start pointing fingers...
make sure you hands are clean!”
― Bob Marley