summer is over?

they said summer officially ended last friday. i say that's a bummer! i haven't even had a great summer adventure yet. but then again, there'll be another summer next year. = ) truthfully though, it will still be wonderful year ahead for me (fingers crossed-i am optimistic) so i'll look forward to many fun times ahead.

i traveled with the bf last week so i'm still fatigued. but my whole body massage last night was to die for! i actually slept for 12 whole hours afterwards! my mom didn't want me to go, what with the storm signals and all. thankfully there wasn't much rain to talk about, in fact it rained more in our place than in the the metropolis.

anyway, i was supposed to go to palawan next week. but it got cancelled--clashing schedules is the main culprit. again, so goes my summer. but i guess i'll just spend time with the bf and the baby. that ought to make up for it.

love story

funny how life plays its tricks on us. we have no idea whatsoever how our life will turn in a few years or so. when i was younger, i had often thought i'd be married at 25, have kids, be a wife and mother. blah, blah, blah. i was still with my ex-boyfriend then and no one (my family included) would ever believe we would break up. we did, after several years of togetherness, after so many things we have gone through.

i am the type to give my all and everything in love. i would never fall in love halfway. i believe in loving and being loved equally in return. but after all is said and done and it still does not work out, then i give up. when i say it's over, i am prepared to let go already. i know it will be painful and trying but i always do my best.

i met the bf when i had broken up with the ex. but the ex was always entering the picture since he didn't want our relationship to end. looking back, i am thankful the bf came at the right time and that he was strong enough for both of us. now the ex is super history and the bf and i are growing stronger day by day.

i had actually met the bf in a very ordinary way--mistaken identity. hahaha! yes, i thought he was my cousin's husband so i smiled at him or rather at his general direction. i really couldn't see his face. and that's how it all began.

he always says God gave me to him and maybe indeed He did.

PRAYER OF ST. THERESE OF THE CHILD JESUS

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May today there be peace within

May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith
May you use the gifts that you have received
and pass on the love that has been given to you
May you be content knowing you are a child of God
Let this presence settle into you bones and
allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love
It is there for each and every one of you.

office politics

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i have been working for more or less seven years. i may be younger than most of my colleagues but i am already an officer in the company. some rank and file employees made some fuss about it before until they realized that well, i deserve my position.

anyhoo, other than that my office life is kind of boring. i have been and probably always will be minding my own business. i don't care much for the lives of others. so sometimes i expect the same of them; doesn't always happen though. nevertheless, we get along most of the time. i'm very adaptable you see. i know how to act with different types of people. i get along with almost everyone, as long as i can tolerate you. if not, then i simply ignore you.

but despite that, i don't always interact with my officemates after work although we are "close". we invite each other for special occasions: birthdays, fiestas, weddings, funerals etc. (i definitely invite them since they always mention any parties i have coming up) they usually go to my events but i usually skip theirs. not because i'm rude intentionally but often because i am out of town on weekends. also when i get home from work, i rarely go out. i only go out with the bf sometimes or with baby wants to go to the mall. the baby is used to being with me after work so he looks for me when i'm gone at night.

i don't know, but probably because we already spend 8 hours together from monday to friday, i think that's enough togetherness. still, i would never bare my soul to any of them. sure i talk about life and the like but nothing really close to the heart. i keep to myself often. i am often left alone in the room and i really don't mind. more often than not, i go out of the office to eat. i only converse with them if necessary.

and despite all that, they think we're tight. why spoil their fun?

teevee!!!

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i love watching tv. it can be informative, entertaining and while away the time very quickly. we each have a television in our respective bedrooms in the house and sometimes we all watch the same shows separately. at night, the house is silent as we are all glued to the screen. my tv set is a gift from the bf when i was pregnant. the colors are quite vivid (even if it was on sale) and definitely not flat!

that said, here is a list of my favorite shows. 12 of them because sometimes 10 is not enough.

1. MODERN FAMILY- i love this show. jes??? 'nuff said.
2. HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER-who doesn't love ted and barney? and robin's gorgeous!
3. TWO AND A HALF MEN-when charlie sheen was sober enough, that is.
4. THE GOOD WIFE- i'm a frustrated lawyer and the story's quite good too.
5. IRON CHEF/THROWDOWN/INA GARTEN- i love cooking shows, that's all!
6. TOP CHEF - padma's voice is interesting and it's what got me hooked. she's beautiful too.
7. CSI/CSI NEW YORK/CSI MIAMI- i miss grissom. horatio can be quite oa!
8. GLEE- i absolutely adore most of their songs.. some i can't relate to or i haven't heard of yet but they're still well sung
9. MASTERCHEF/MASTERCHEF AUSTRALIA- what can i say? i cannot cook to save my life!
10.WEEDS- it's addicting! i wish there were moooore seasons! i miss it.
11. GREY'S ANATOMY- just tell me who didn't fall for derek? yummy!
12. ACE OF CAKES- their cakes are out of this world, stunning and wickedly creative

snippets

ME: hello baby, how are you?

BABY: hi mommy, i'm baby.

(awwww... )

unpretty

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they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. that may be or may not be true, right? i cannot say i am pretty, let alone use the word beautiful. i am not grotesque-looking, mind you. but neither am i breathtaking or stunning. if you ask me, i have a too-wide face with a small nose, thick lips and unremarkable brown eyes. although when put together, my countenance looks kind of okay.

anyway, the bf calls me beautfiul (he should, shouldn't he?). however, i have always been and always will probably be wary and uncomfortable with compliments. at home, we never say you look beautiful or handsome. i don't know why... it's just for the kids though. like baby you're so gwapo and that sort of thing.

truthfully though, i have often been (not always) mistaken for a certain celebrity, even when i still in my teens. i was asked in the mall but i just smiled and said no while walking away. another acquaintance also remarked on it. the only missing feature is the dimples. i only have one on one cheek and it hides sometimes. but still i don't think i am beautiful. an admirer told me before that i have the look that warrants a second glance. so i have taken to dressing rather simply and i never wear make-up--just lipstick. i do not want that attention. i do dress quite nicely, well-put together (if i may say so myself--ehem!) but i do not wear skimpy, cleavage-showing clothes. quite so often that the bf asks me to wear skirts or tank tops sometimes (he likes showing me off but only in select company) thankfully, i know when to dress up or down.

but really when you think of it, everyone is beautiful. i have never been the type to judge a person on how he or she looks. i look beyond the physical and instead focus on the person as a whole. there are those who are pretty but are quite stupid or simply arrogant while there those not so blessed but are definitely worth knowing. as for me, i would like to think that i am equal parts good and bad. i have my sterling qualities but i have never been the type of person to take sh*t. i am assertive and courteous and i expect the same from others too. sadly, that is not always the case.

so whether you are a drop-dead gorgeous lass or a very handsome hunk, at the end of the day what matters is how you treat yourself and other people. your beauty won't count if you act like trash.

among other things

i was away for a bit because of several things. my work computer got sick--yes, virus! so it was out of commission last week. to be perfectly honest, it was the boyfriend's fault. haha! he wanted to copy music from a cd he was to return immediately. i was at work, so i just ripped it using the office computer and copied it to his flash drive. lo and behold, it was virus-ed! (is that a word?) anyhoo, it ate up my drive c: and the rest of my files. of course i didn't admit it was my fault, just said some random person used it, blah, blah! while i brought my own computer to work, i only ended up just playing plants vs. zombies. also, blogger was under some maintenance thingie and that meant no post yet.

it was another travel time for the bf and i; time to bond, etc. funnily enough, i didn't know my brother was flying in too but we were on different airlines though. i was looking forward to the travel truthfully because we haven't done it in a while. but i was not looking forward to the food. the bf and i have different tastes in food. he's more basic, home-cooked and sort of healthy. meanwhile, i love pasta, pizza, desserts and other greasy, bad-for-you food! the only concession i get is dessert. i don't eat much of the main course, just the sweets. sometimes, its enough.

the bf and i usually have our heart to heart talks during travel and this trip was no exception. i must admit i have been a little distant with him these past few weeks. i don't know why, maybe just hormones. our time together made things a bit sweeter and he sort of made up for his previous gaffes. he even said he was going to buy me a new pair of fitflops! hahaha! i didn't take him up on that offer though. it was too late you see, i had gotten one already. ooops! = )

the baby is fine too. although he is needing a new haircut and more food and less tv/dvd. it's hard to manage a child sometimes. being a parent can be quite stressful and tiresome. but i also know i would do anything for my baby. anything, anytime.

essentially, life has been going quite smoothly, among other things. i am not looking forward to any rocky patches (who is?) even if i know it is inevitable. i just hope i will always have the strength and the faith to go on, day by day.

money, money, money!

we all need money! some need more than others, some make more than others. some are born with money, some work hard for their money.

i am always in dire need of money. i believe i do not know how to manage money (it shows in my credit card debt!) but i also think that you will find money especially when you need it the most. praying helps too!

anyway, as a netizen, i am always aware of new stuff--gadgets, bags, shoes, cosmetics and whatnot. i read a lot of blogs that often recommend high end products are waaaaaaaaaaaaay out of my league--and only leaves me drooling. also, these bloggers are rich! i mean they "invest" in Louis Vuitton, Chanel and Hermes bags. one thinks that a P5,000 Cambridge satchel is a steal so she gets it in two colors! another goes out of the country to bond with her son or complains that she needs a bigger house because she has a loooot of stuff. thus shows the disparity between the rich (them) and poor (me!)

honestly though, i am content with my lot. i eat 3 times a day (sometimes i avoid eating because i am perpetually on a diet!) have my own transportation, have several pieces of jewelry, own a computer, cellular phone and saved some money in the bank. but sometimes, i cannot help but wish i had more. if only to buy my wants. i actually never go to the mall on ordinary days just so i won't be able to fall in love with a new watch or bag or blouse. i hate myself in that when i see something i fancy, i really get it. so i no longer give myself the chance to see anything. i just stay home. it's safer that way!

if you're wondering, the bf and i have separate money. he has more! but i don't ask from him. save for the baby's needs and that is not even regular. i usually get his stuff since its not that expensive anyway. he gives for major expenditures though, such as birthdays, hospital bills and gifts. oh and sometimes i do ask the bf to buy me stuff--only when i'm broke! = ) but he has been good on taking care of us, money-wise, that i must say.

on more a serious note, my friends and i try to give back to the community once a year. we go the the hospital and give away grocery items and feed the kids. i know i do not have that much but still i know i am blessed. when i was a student i wished i was working so i could have my own money. now i wish i was a student so that at least i wouldn't have to worry about money! how funny life is!!!

*thanks to www.mygrouphq.com for the photo*

out sick

not in the mood to write. i am sick! it's my annual colds/cough season. i have a raging headache, runny nose and sore throat!
plus i am mad at the bf!!!
had a frap with a high school classmate though. with a nice, long chat! = )

terrible, terrible twos!!!

my baby is two years old and i have heard stories that children are terrible at this stage. i thought it was just stories. until i encountered it first-hand! my baby is definitely terrible at 2!!!

i am a working mom so he gets left at home with my parents and his yaya. i do not worry because i know he is in good hands. but i only realized how spoiled he is just now. i was supposed to take him to my uncle's house after work for a visit. but when i got home he was already crying. so i asked my father what was wrong with him. apparently, he wanted to stay inside the bedroom and watch television but my father forced him to play outside. so he cried. i took him inside while i changed clothes and we proceeded outside so we could already leave. try as i might, i couldn't get him to stop screaming. as in very loud crying. with matching crying on the floor! i was shocked. it was like a flashback!!! yes, i was like this before-- and in public too! i couldn't believe how spoiled my baby was.

part of me wanted to leave, to cry, to do something! it was terrible! i was tempted to call the bf but i know he was still busy. even if i did though, he still couldn't do anything. baby was throwing a mean tantrum. but i held my ground. took him to the bedroom but i didn't turn on the television or the dvd player. i let him cry, pinched and threated to use the belt. it worked when he got tired. so let i him eat dinner and only then did he get to watch tv.

sometimes, twos are terrible but i guess you have to show who's boss. i am the boss and he is just my baby.

that said, let's go watch the dinosaurs!!