unpretty

(photo by www.beautyschoolinalaska.com)

they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. that may be or may not be true, right? i cannot say i am pretty, let alone use the word beautiful. i am not grotesque-looking, mind you. but neither am i breathtaking or stunning. if you ask me, i have a too-wide face with a small nose, thick lips and unremarkable brown eyes. although when put together, my countenance looks kind of okay.

anyway, the bf calls me beautfiul (he should, shouldn't he?). however, i have always been and always will probably be wary and uncomfortable with compliments. at home, we never say you look beautiful or handsome. i don't know why... it's just for the kids though. like baby you're so gwapo and that sort of thing.

truthfully though, i have often been (not always) mistaken for a certain celebrity, even when i still in my teens. i was asked in the mall but i just smiled and said no while walking away. another acquaintance also remarked on it. the only missing feature is the dimples. i only have one on one cheek and it hides sometimes. but still i don't think i am beautiful. an admirer told me before that i have the look that warrants a second glance. so i have taken to dressing rather simply and i never wear make-up--just lipstick. i do not want that attention. i do dress quite nicely, well-put together (if i may say so myself--ehem!) but i do not wear skimpy, cleavage-showing clothes. quite so often that the bf asks me to wear skirts or tank tops sometimes (he likes showing me off but only in select company) thankfully, i know when to dress up or down.

but really when you think of it, everyone is beautiful. i have never been the type to judge a person on how he or she looks. i look beyond the physical and instead focus on the person as a whole. there are those who are pretty but are quite stupid or simply arrogant while there those not so blessed but are definitely worth knowing. as for me, i would like to think that i am equal parts good and bad. i have my sterling qualities but i have never been the type of person to take sh*t. i am assertive and courteous and i expect the same from others too. sadly, that is not always the case.

so whether you are a drop-dead gorgeous lass or a very handsome hunk, at the end of the day what matters is how you treat yourself and other people. your beauty won't count if you act like trash.